August 20th

The date that I am dying to approach. My spirit for the summer is gone because of my belief that I will be totally broke with college, and because I have a boyfriend that is difficult to keep up with between two jobs :) The Goo Goo Dolls are my ALL TIME FAVORITE BAND IN THE UNIVERSE!! And I may just give the tickets away because my wonderful bf decided to forget and work on that night :) I keep adding smiley faces just to have a cue to not cry haha.

I hate being a girl sometimes because I get so moody and it drives me crazy. Maybe I will go to the concert and get stranded their trying to hitch a ride home like my loser friends do. I should call some people at 11:30 at night and tell them to pick me up.... man I hate Dennis.

The museum is awesome. The exhibition is August 2nd and I'll have my art done by tomorrow. I feel so accomplished when I'm their and I love the people I work with (with of course a few exceptions) But I realized that it does me no good to deprive myself of rest over the summer... no matter how bad it seems I need money. I won't do this to myself again (yeah...wait till next summer :P ) haha.

My rant is complete.

when....

When will this worry inside me subside?! I spent $500 within a 20 minute period and I had to work about about a months time to get even that much! *sigh* all of my adult friends are probably laughing at my rant, but it's really depressing... I had hoped that I would have no financial worries and now I'm already considering a job during school. I cannot get over the fact that my mother asked me for $100 because she was short on rent? It seems totally pointless now that I've wasted my summer working two jobs just to have nothing to show for it by the beginning of the year. On a brighter side I found out that I got a couple hundred dollars from Competitive student grant thing. It was a nice surprise despite all this. I'm terrified about my meal plan I don't think I'll be able to afford it.... This is probably why i'm getting sick.

When will I stop worrying?